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Saturday, August 25, 2007
DOOMED DOOMED=(so doomed la..maths is on mon.examm! why nt studying???stephanie lim minqiiiiiiii DO SUMTING, aniting!!slap smack hit box scratch stab...
[*taz89*]9:36 AM
Thursday, August 23, 2007
I AM CRAVING FOR SAKAE SUSHIII....craving craving craving.n why why wont aniting taste nice to me??wdv.i dead for exam lawdvwdv la..im sick and tired
[*taz89*]7:39 AM
Monday, August 20, 2007
today i went hme so so late.i tot my dad will kill me cos it's study break n exams are on fir onwards.so dead la how la..i haven even started on the subject yet.walao. totally gt no damn mood la wdv.i feel so restless n lerthagic evryday now.for god knows wad reason.im irritated lyk super easily nw.especialli by sum1.but wdv, im dying aniwae.never behaved liddat b4 la..whatever.i feel annoyed, angry, restless, lonely.but lyk whatever
[*taz89*]8:42 AM
Saturday, August 18, 2007
o mama meeya..i jus came home. woke up at 6am.chatted on fone wif val n char till 635.supposingly jus a call to wake each oth up, ended up wif a chat.lolwaited for 39 at 715 for so freaking long, din cumfor so long, realised tad 81 can stop at de place where i was meetin val, so ya.meet oppo tpjc, den walked to tamp mart meet char.ate porridge n noodle.so super full.den we went shop & save buy yakult.it's addictive kkx.ate n tok n ate agn haha.abt 830 825 we left.walked to flag cab.no cab wanted to stop for char muaha!val decided to go play de toy machine tingy, one which u had to insert coins den u trn the ting n a ball wif a toy drops out.freak funny.den a cab finally stopped for us.val n i stopped at sum busstop, while char cont to yishun where her karate grading was. GOOD LUCK!n one ting, dey have to break tiles!so so cool la!really kkx, breaking tiles lei!!SO AMUSING.i oso wan break la.den i reached hme at abt 9 plus am.im so tired nw.n the whole hse is awake.so earli la wth.shall i slp or watch tv.?ill end up sleeping.so lerthagic.good morning world.
[*taz89*]6:25 PM
Monday, August 13, 2007
im as gd as being in jail.u get questioned lyk mad abt everyting.u get forced to ans qns..everyting u do mus b known to de police officer.n de worst is, if u have an unreasonable officer, ur as good as dead.being in jail, it's as gd as having no freedom.okie, shall cont tml or sumday
[*taz89*]9:58 AM
Sunday, August 12, 2007
im a useless shit.my whole life, all i eva did was, cause trouble.aniwae.im termed as the most childish person.yes, im dumb, slow, childish, useless, and a veri bad person.according to sum1 indirectly, i enjoy sacarsm, im happy being evil.fine den. nw my turn to speak.i wish to die now.aniwae i ought to.cos im a bad person, i make ppl feel hurt, i dont tink abt their feelings.ya, so i shud die first and fast.so tad ppl will once again feel happiness and de society will b free of bad ppl lyk me.
[*taz89*]10:42 AM
life's getting more screwed up.actually, nt every part is screwed up, only sum parts.ya it sucks, hu lyks a screwed up life la.i feel lyk life can jus end now la, i'll feel relieved.for real.at tyms, i super felt tad i nv shud have gotten into tis kinda life.makes me feel so horrid nw.it's nobody's fault.it"s jus tad our lifes are written in de journal to be tis way.or, these cud be cause and effect.becos of wad we gt ourselves into, we get these results.feeling regretful wont help u to turn tym backwards.tads for sure.but to improve tings, one can start anew.after falling to de bottom of de pit, de onli way is to work upwards, so as to see de daylight again. sumtyms, i feel so so tired.tings must be stopped, cos i nid a rest.iF nt, i'll jus die.right nw, i nid a heart rest.right nw, i so so feel lyk digging my heart out n throwing it out to sea.n let the right person pick it up again.It's so so wounded, tad jus one more slash, it's as gd as stabbing it in de centre.n it will nt pound ani more, it will b dead.even thou my actions nw may b nt wad a stephanie wud do,it's for the heart's own gd.if nt, it'll b as gd as a dead-man walking.lord help.trust my words, i have never in my entire life, been tad harsh or mean to sum1.mayb it was due to de CAUSE and EFFECT.being lyk tis wud prob mean, ..my heart is slowing down, my life is shortening.THE END.
[*taz89*]9:17 AM
Sunday, August 05, 2007
everything is getting screwed, i don deny.even myself, in sch, im almost totally screwed.have no idea how to save myself from doom.my relationship is getting screwed oso.everyting is my fault.sumtyms, i rather just give up everything.it's so tiring okie.tired till i cant eva feel veri awake.cos of all these shit happening, i realli find it difficult to be in a good mood at all tyms.seriously, if i start flarin, the only way for me to chill is nt do stuff which will irritate me further.sum ppl just don understand this simple sentence.i feel tad going to sch is so sucky, cos i don find veri nice frens there, apart frm sum ppl in particular.And that my studies are so lacking n sucky, that im on my way to giving up.i feel so demorarised.absolutely no mood to do aniting properly.to me now, as long as i pass my tests, im satisfied.as long as i attend lessons, whether i doze off during it anot, im satisfied.as long as im on tym for classes, whether anot i doze off during it, im oso satisfied.now, i realli have no more motivation to score or top in anything.the fact that my fren's feeling depressed cos she lost sumting impt isnt making me feel ani better.my fingers are tired but i have to blog these down cos i cant speak well and ant keep too much of these in myself if nt i'll just go bonkers.m serious.so low spirited nw.i feel lyk shit oso.cant do aniting well.even lab tests are lyk shit.i do nothing well.but i realli hope that one day i can do well once agn.currently no1 is able to make me feel better agn n giv me ani motivation to study hard alreadi.i realli wish that i could have personal tutors to help me in my sch work.i reali wish.but how easi will it be to search for poly tutors??life is lyk turning from bad to worst nw.and im going to face a massive scolding frm maths teacher.wonder how i'll react, cry infront of the class? too malu alreadi.or flare at the teacher? bad idea.i donkno. my rxns are unpredictable nowadays.life is equalli unpredictable everyday too.lyk i tot today will be a fairly nice day, but it ended up bad. so bad that i lost my soul n became a corpse.all i wish for now is a nice day.i just nid sum respect to be given to me.
[*taz89*]6:43 AM
Friday, August 03, 2007
im breaking into pieces for real.im just crumbling slowly onto the grnd.everyting seems sucky.mayb it's just the way i see.wad so eva.im alreadi feeling moody abt sch, stress abt it cos evryting is so bad.n tis extra ting has to participate in making me feel worst.i have yet to apologise to my fone for throwing it on the flr out of anger.it's all my fault. everyting. from the beginning it was alreadi my fault.difficult to xplain, cos it was way in the beginning.wdv it is, i feel tad it's my fault.so demoralised n depressed nowadays.n im working to much less nw, so sucky. gt nt much $ liao.hw la, nid stuff oso cant get myself. wdv, i shud jus slap myself for everyting tad has gone wrong
[*taz89*]10:34 AM
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