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Sunday, August 05, 2007
everything is getting screwed, i don deny.even myself, in sch, im almost totally screwed.have no idea how to save myself from doom.my relationship is getting screwed oso.everyting is my fault.sumtyms, i rather just give up everything.it's so tiring okie.tired till i cant eva feel veri awake.cos of all these shit happening, i realli find it difficult to be in a good mood at all tyms.seriously, if i start flarin, the only way for me to chill is nt do stuff which will irritate me further.sum ppl just don understand this simple sentence.i feel tad going to sch is so sucky, cos i don find veri nice frens there, apart frm sum ppl in particular.And that my studies are so lacking n sucky, that im on my way to giving up.i feel so demorarised.absolutely no mood to do aniting properly.to me now, as long as i pass my tests, im satisfied.as long as i attend lessons, whether i doze off during it anot, im satisfied.as long as im on tym for classes, whether anot i doze off during it, im oso satisfied.now, i realli have no more motivation to score or top in anything.the fact that my fren's feeling depressed cos she lost sumting impt isnt making me feel ani better.my fingers are tired but i have to blog these down cos i cant speak well and ant keep too much of these in myself if nt i'll just go bonkers.m serious.so low spirited nw.i feel lyk shit oso.cant do aniting well.even lab tests are lyk shit.i do nothing well.but i realli hope that one day i can do well once agn.currently no1 is able to make me feel better agn n giv me ani motivation to study hard alreadi.i realli wish that i could have personal tutors to help me in my sch work.i reali wish.but how easi will it be to search for poly tutors??life is lyk turning from bad to worst nw.and im going to face a massive scolding frm maths teacher.wonder how i'll react, cry infront of the class? too malu alreadi.or flare at the teacher? bad idea.i donkno. my rxns are unpredictable nowadays.life is equalli unpredictable everyday too.lyk i tot today will be a fairly nice day, but it ended up bad. so bad that i lost my soul n became a corpse.all i wish for now is a nice day.i just nid sum respect to be given to me.
[*taz89*]6:43 AM
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